Nothing like time off from work and the end of year to remind you of all the things that you HAVEN’T done and all of the promises you made to yourself that you would get done this year. I feel like I’m so far behind on life and then I remember a statement that Iyanla Vanzant says in one of her books “Beloved, you are right where you are supposed to be”. (Side note: I always chuckle when she says “beloved”).
It’s hard for me to fathom that I’m right where I’m supposed to be when I feel like I’m running trying to catch up with the dreams/promises of God. I’ve been thinking back to all of the “wasted time” on mindless things and realize that I have MUCH work to do….another life to touch, another goal to reach. More and more I realize that I’m here to be a blessing to someone else. This is different from just servanthood. This is serving, out of your God-given gifts, for the benefit of someone else.
We all make resolutions and promises to do this or that in the new year. I’m vowing just to BE. Be a better me and all that entails. Years ago, a friend of mine introduced the concept to me of us living life as human BEINGS, not human DOINGS. The takeaway from that for me is that when we just BE, the doing becomes more purposeful and impactful.
I haven’t compiled a New Years Resolution in years, and this year will be no different. Instead, I complete a TOP TEN list of things that I’ve prayerfully considered and expect to see happen in the New Year. There is nothing like pulling that list out at various times during the year and being able to mark things off my list, but also using the TOP TEN as a means to get me back on track and keep me motivated in the areas that have not been accomplished or I haven’t seen fruit.
I vowed that during this time off, I would continue/finish writing my book. so, when I retrieved the documents that contained my notes, etc, I realize that around this time last year, I was doing the same thing, compiling notes and preparing to conduct a focus group for my book/activities. I’m embarrassed that one year later, I’m still in the same spot that I was previously. It was actually heartbreaking that I was in the same position of talking about something and not following through with it.
It’s amazing how easy it is for us to help someone else forge their dreams, but when it comes to ours we become stagnate. I cannot continue to allow this to be my story. I’m turning the page on this year and what I didn’t accomplish this year and I choose to start RIGHT NOW on the things that need to be accomplished. What’s the point in waiting until January 1st, when I can start it on December 27th?
Today is the day, that I choose to stop asking, with disappointment, the question, where has the time gone?
Love you all….more to come in the new year!